Hi.
It’s me.
I’ve been longing to write about this, but I guess I was never yet in the right mood to share until tonight.
You know how sometimes, at night, you tend to just stare into space (in most everyone’s cases, your rooms’ ceilings) and think about how your life, so far, has been going. I’m sure most people would end up overthinking things that weren’t supposed to be such big deals in the first place. Well, right now, it’s happening to me.
I know some people who think letting your emotions take over you is a stupid act. I do agree though. Don’t you think it’s a bit foolish to let something take over you till you end up doing something stupid? But, sometimes, I do let it take over me. Just to remind me, from now and then, that I’m far from being perfect. It’s good yknow, or not. I don’t even know myself. I just think it’s better for me to downgrade myself and to assure myself how suck my life is first before letting everyone else do it for me.
It sucks, doesn’t it? Feeling like you’re a second choice.
I do try, or I did. No matter how hard I try to be myself, people don’t seem to notice me. I’m unnoticeable. I’m always just ‘her friend’, ‘his friend’ or ‘the noisy loud girl’. Lol it’s actually quite simple, you see, people tend to give the good looking ones’ chances to get to know first. Well, unfortunately and fortunately for me, I’ve many really nice good looking friends. So, there goes my chance to shine. I don’t blame them though, I never do. They’re all fantastic and I love them with all my heart. But for once, I wish to be the first to be given the chance.
I don’t like feeling miserable. I’ve always wished my life was like the one I’ve seen in movies. I wanna be the main character of this movie I’m currently casting for. The movie that I can never call mine. Sucks, doesn’t it?
At times, I feel like shutting myself off from everyone. Just stay quiet and be alone. Yknow, stop trying. If I were given a chance to wish anything at all, I would wish to experience life but as a whole different person. The person who people would instantly notice her existence.
I'm Nazreena Zukernain.
And this is just me overthinking things.
I'm sorry for spreading negative vibes tonight, so not me.
Be happy, everyone. Stay positive.
Thank you.
That’s all from me tonight.
Mind my Grammar, Goodnight.
